I'm feeling fantastic right now. I just can't contain the excitement! So many good things have happened to me recently - weight loss is back on track thanks to FitFarm's program, starting my guest writer "job" with Noom, I was asked to give out an interview for an article (will post the link here as soon as it's published) and now another insane opportunity has popped up thanks to my blog! I'm going to try and keep it to myself for now as I don't know what's going to happen with it, but it's all good!!

All this has been timed so perfectly. I've been under so much stress for a few weeks now, but all these good news and a lot of help from a friend really have lifted my mood so much. Silly little songs when I was sulking to make me laugh and having someone to rant to about it all made it so much easier to deal with. And knowing that something is going to happen about the thing causing the stress is definitely helping as well. Just need to wait for a little longer and things should resolve. All I need to do is bite my tongue and be patient.


My not so great mood at work the other day (from my Instagram).

But less about that, let's not drag everyone's mood down any more than this! I really struggled to stay still after the email I got earlier tonight (and I got such an energy spike from that green tea I had earlier) so I figured that I'm gonna go let some of that energy out and go for a walk on the beach. The tide was super low so actually got to walk on the sand, even jogged a bit because I was feeling so good about everything.

By the time I climbed back on the promenade my shoes and socks were soaking wet and legs caked in wet sand! But nevermind, I had so much fun!



All this just shows that nothing bad lasts forever (I believe my friend actually said exactly the same thing to me yesterday but I kinda just ignored it hah), it will all turn around eventually! :) We just need to keep going and give the world an opportunity to catch up with us.

It's been a good day today! Got up relatively early and headed out pretty much first thing this morning. We actually had an appointment with a mortgage advisor, just talking through our options and so on. :)

The other half also decided to treat me to lunch after our appointment so we went to Subway. I really fell in love with their mango chicken a while ago so went for that again on honey oat bread and a bunch of veg. While it's probably one of the "best" takeaways you could have, I did feel a small guilty sting after.


And that kinda brings us to the post title. I didn't want to end up just sitting indoors all day despite the weather being miserable outside, so I decided to defy the elements and go for a walk in the rain! I really want tomorrow's weigh in to be good and this walk definitely made me feel a bit better about myself. I know I've lost weight this week, I just want to make sure any possible water weight doesn't creep up because of lunch (yes, I'm getting that paranoid about it!!).

And it's handy to know that my waterproof makeup really is waterproof! No smears, no panda eyes, yay!


Oh and to add up to the happiness, I got a job interview! Perfect location, perfect hours. Fingers crossed.

I bought these shorts back in late April. I ordered them online so obviously had no idea if they'd fit me or not. And well, at the time they didn't. They'd go all the way up but I couldn't button them and the zip would stop about half way. However I didn't want to send them back because I really loved them and just kept thinking that "I'm losing weight. They'll fit me soon enough.". Well, I remembered them today and decided to try if they'd fit me now. And they did! They're still just a tiny bit tight around the waist, but they fit! I'm so chuffed, it's these little things that keep me going. :) I think the main reason I bought these was so I can show off my calves, hah! It was actually a bit of a struggle to take these off!


Now all I need is an excuse to go out so I can wear these with heels and some nice top! ;D

It has been a very workout filled day! I can definitely get used to a schedule like this. ;) Of course today's routine is more a one off thing than something I'll be doing more often.



I was meant to have a PT session at the gym last night, but due to a medical emergency my PT had to rebook me for today. I didn't really mind, I just had to replan my evening's workout so I don't absolutely kill myself. My normal schedule will look like this (gym days have been agreed with my other half when we signed up):

Monday: out of gym cardio
Tuesday: gym
Wednesday: pilates
Thursday: rest
Friday: gym
Saturday: out of gym cardio
Sunday: rest


But yeah, about the PT session! I spent 20 minutes cycling to and from gym again, the weather was absolutely miserable before I left (we actually had a thunderstorm this morning), it kept raining on and off so I was quite worried that I'd get absolutely soaked on the way to the gym. Thankfully the rain stopped for the 20 minutes I was out so it's all good!

My PT is such a firecracker, she's got such an amazing way of motivating her clients and I really enjoyed working out with her. I'm not gonna go too much into detail, but it was a very core focused workout. It's given me a very good base to work with, I'm a lot more comfortable with all the machines now and know what kind of weights to start with. I also got a very nice compliment from her, she said I'm a natural with weights and my technique is spot on.

She helped me with some stretching and she was simply amazed of how flexible I am. It became more and more apparent as we went along, she did also point out that I might have loose joints (which would make a lot of sense with my back). That gives me even more reason to train with weights, as it makes everything that little bit tighter and may prevent discolations and such.



I've decided to have a one hour session with her about once a month just to check where I'm at and to make sure my technique's still in check. I will no doubt bump into her at the gym every week, but I really want that one-on-one time with her every now and then. It'll also keep me focused until then, it's nice to go back to a PT and show them how much you've developed. :)

I focused my evening workout on cardio. A quick warmup on the treadmill and after that I just went nuts on the stepper. I absolutely love that machine, I was able to go on for half an hour without any kinds of pain. Towards the end I was slightly aware of my back but nothing major so was extremely happy with how well it all went. :) Finished off with a bit of core work and lots of stretching so I'm not completely handicapped in the morning.


And just to make myself feel even better today, here's a comment from a friend who I don't speak to that often anymore. :) I never even realised he reads my blog so the positive feedback lifted my mood even more!

"I find it really admirable! You write very honestly, and open! I know ive not spoke to you in a while but i just wanted to encourage you a little further.. keep going because your life is changing for Awesome with the Op and Studies.. very cool! go you :)"

 Thank you, comments like this really keep me going. <3


And steak dinner to finish the day off. Yum.

Since coming back from their holiday, my in laws have really fallen in love with the Jamaican culture. This obviously includes the food side of it as well! I didn't really have a proper lunch today (literally just wholewheat pasta with beetroot) so I was starving by dinner time. I did sort of snack on stuff while waiting for things to cook but not gonna worry about that too much.



Anyways! Jerk chicken, rice and a salad made out of kale, tomatoes, peppers and onion. I also had a little bit of this fish curry I didn't take a picture of. Incredibly delicious, just spicy enough to give the food a bit of a kick but not too much to only be able to taste the spices. And a bit of pudding as well in the form of apple pie, strawberries and a little dollop of vanilla ice cream. :) Tomorrow's weigh in might not go quite as well as I want it to, haha!


And just to float in the clouds a bit, I got this wonderful message from my friend today. It made me smile so much and I really wanted to share it with you guys.

"I respect you so much. You do so many things even though your back is as it is... You could be just miserable and just stay in bed all day feeling sorry for yourself, but you do so many things, clean, housework, walking the dogs, fitness etc... [...] But most of my respect for you is earned because you're willing to change your life. Losing weight takes alot out of you and is difficult. You're so strong for continuing it."

Thank you. <3

Everyone has days when they just feel brilliant and confident. Well I had one of those today. Despite my back still being sore from yesterday, I just had a good start to the day. For the first time in a long time I feel like I'm not being forgotten, I'm going towards the end of my journey with back pain and I can start planning my future.






And to go on about the good mood I've been in today. This top has never fit me brilliantly, it's always been on the tight side. I had it under my pink top today but when I got home I just wanted to see what just the white top looks like. And it's not bad! Still a bit tight but doesn't look like a sausage skin anymore. Very happy. :)